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October 09 You and I collide- Howie DayThe dawn is breaking A light shining through You're barely waking And I'm tangled up in you Yeah I'm open, you're closed Where I follow, you'll go I worry I won't see your face Light up again Even the best fall down sometimes Even the wrong words seem to rhyme Out of the doubt that fills my mind I somehow find You and I collide I'm quiet you know You make a first impression I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind Even the best fall down sometimes Even the stars refuse to shine Out of the back you fall in time I somehow find You and I collide Don't stop here I've lost my place I'm close behind Even the best fall down sometimes Even the wrong words seem to ryhme Out of the doubt that fills your mind You finally find You and I collide You finally find You and I collide You finally find You and I collide September 30 Just a tree...The leaves shattered everywhere
I stand beneath this old tree
Looking at it, I compare to myself
yes a tree I have bcome
Used to have greenery
and birds used to sing with me
children used to play with me
people used to enjoy my shade
but they are gone now
I stand tall, naked
My dreams and desires
those who wrapped me
are down on the ground...
all shattered and wind blowing them distant
I stand there all alone watching them swept away
Those were mine, once
but no more now...
Sometimes in the heavy rain
and sometimes on the hot sunny day
covered with snow sometimes
freezing to the boiling...
just facing the challenges that come ahead
And not sure
what's going to happen
fear of running down by the flow of water
or bing blown away with the wind current
Just fear of falling down
I spread my hand
hope that somebody finds me
and give a hug
I want it so bad
don't let me just stay still
I don't want to be a living dead
come enjoy with me, is what I wish for
But haven't given my hope yet!
someday I will be back again
with my good all days
with my dreams and wishes growing again
I'm sure
I'll find a cure to treat this pain September 09 I'll be there for you...Martin Nievera - I'll Be There (For You) When the world is unkind Who knows where will go I'll be there for you.... The rainbow will end in the palm of your hand I'll be there.... September 03 My princessDear, my sweet princess I was happy to hear your voice Nearly cried when you called "Baba Baba" those words you screamed Nearly tore my heart apart There I was alone lost and lonley Just couldn't keep thinking I was on the flight with my thoughts near you Dreamed of being with you and holding you in my arms Share those sweet words you'd speak to me and say again "Baba Baba".. please take my hand.. I'd then take you for a walk play with the pebbles and stones I remembered the day when we were beside a pond and there I handed you a pebble you threw it in the water and splashes there were so happy you were and you laughed out loud oh dear, I'm missing those laughters right here now... just thinking and thinking I see the pictures and accompany my heart pray that my child is okay my princess is healthy and good distance and the memories life full of misery That's it! And That's it! Trying just to feel your absence and how hard it is living a life like this... I love you my princess and dad's missing you lovingly as always Some More Quotes"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
What do you do when the only person who can make you laugh is the person who made you cry?
"You can break someone's heart, but you can't stop them from loving you." - Dr. Stolzer
July 16 Just Thinking...Just thinking....
I thought I wouldn't cry
But those tears just dropped
Wished I'd cry with you
Never it was a reality
Still living in hope though
You'll be back someday
Dear, it's been such a lonely day
And the nights seem even longer
Longing to be with you
day dreaming about you
it's such a sweet memory
Wished I'd share them
All alone with you
Just you, me and our togetherness
Wouldn't that be teasing time?
Long distance and time passing slow
Playing with imaginations
And the beautiful times we shared
Hovering all around...
I look at the walls
I see you smiling back at me
And I smile back
Again you're gone; lost!!
That glimpse hurts again
Thinking about our sweet face
And your sweet laughter
Dear, here I am alone again...
Just thinking... June 17 QuotesU want & u get, that's luck, U want & u wait, that's time. U want but u compromise, that's life. And U want & u wait & u don't compromise that's LOVE. U want & u get, that's luck, U want & u wait, that's time. U want but u compromise, that's life. And U want & u wait & u don't compromise that's LOVE. We cannot be together, But we'll never be apart, For no matter what life brings us, You’re always in my heart May 30 For My Love...From Now and Then.......
Dear If I could be with you
I could see those tear drops flown away could see you cry out loud and I would lend you my shoulder dear I wish I could kiss away your pain and swear that it won't happen again My darling, my love How could I ever hurt and make you cry? i am sorry if I did so... Deep in my heart you are there, right here I can tell and will always I see your eyes, your face such a cry baby you are and always you are in my thoughts How could you even imagine? that I'd hurt your feelings Maybe I did that's why I see you crying face on my screen You are perfect yes you are and will always be no matter what... Dear, Just to say I love you and will always do Please don't let me down and I'am sure you won't coz, you are there always for me and I expect the same every day you have lost your smile honey where is it? Please smile me once just once and let me feel your joy that's it.. I see you dear I die to see that single glimpse dear and rest in peace It brings ease to me and my thoughts makes me feel you are doing okay not good but okay you are living a hard life and I can see it in your eyes your weary face and those lips always willing to say something but, they never let out anything There're a lot of things that you have and want them to share still you hide them still you keep within yourself Dear, am I that confusion now? I know dear, I can see it in you how depressed you are your each and every expressions that you make on your face reminds me of pain My love, I wish i could take them all away And I know I will My darling, I am looking at you and your smiles they ease my feelings so exhausted and tired you look and so are your smiles dear but still full of hopes and dreams I love it... Dear, I want to fulfill all your desires and make our dream come true Dear, I just want to say I love you... and I am missing you a lot a lot more from now and then May 29 I walk aloneWalking this empty street
I wonder oh Lord! why did you left me alone?
Never knowing the destiny
where am I heading to?
I walk alone
Lost and lonely
Searching for the will to survive
Yes, I am walking on
New places and different faces
but the empty road ahead
no one besides me
and no one to talk with
what a cruel world it is
there are thoughts in my mind
memories and imaginations
what a life would have been with you near me?
It's hard to live, just to walk
in every step ahead
when no's there to care
all these thoughts just hovering around
I walk alone
I walk alone
May 28 Strange FeelingI got this strange feeling today... it's early in the morning 2:27. I wasn't asleep. I was lost to myself thinking what's going on in this life. But then I realize that everything happens for the good. Yeah, this strange feeling occupied my mind. Why should I worry when it's going to happen. Yes, big desires and overload in mind only creates mental torture. Wishing big and not getting through it may ruin a day. So I stopped worrying about it. Nobody knows what's going to happen next and one should not worry about it. It comes and it goes. The only thing that remains is you only you. So, it's you who decides what's to do and what not. I listened to the song my wish. It really inspired me. "Your dreams stay big your worries stay small" Yeah. that's really cool. I went outside. Looked around. It's cold and it was slightly raining. It made my day. Yes, if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile... more than anything..more than anything... my wish for you that this life becomes all that you want to... Just a feeling I felt to this day. I hope to do the best in life and keep on walking. I don't know what to write next. Just this much... Be happy to what you have and enjoy to the fullest. April 12 Dear, I miss youDear,
Seems like miles apart... you are being so far away and it hurts when I think about you. What do I see and feel ends with you and that kills me inside. Maybe I am missing you... with each passing day and each moment I'm living here without you...
Far awa, there's a light
showing me the way ahead
Dear, I see you..
With candle light on...
nobody, but seen only by me..
leading me the way ahead...
showing me the directions...
when I am lost and confused...
but far away sometimes
I feel, you're not there with me...
Is it only my illusion?
I think again
Again I realise
I need no eyes to see you
You're always with me...
Controlling all these emotions
sharing wiht my imaginations
Yes, there you are!!!
Being the sight of me
Always making me feel
Here I am dear
Here I am...
Feels like
I am missing you again....
-Psychodeeps
March 12 My LoveSometimes I feel like I did terribly wrong leaving you alond dear. I haven't had that feeling but I was pretty sure that I was doing the right thing for our future. I did not really have thought about you dear, and how hard life you might be having... living just without me with no one to share with your feelings. Dear I am really sorry for that. I tried a lot to control my emotions but to this day I couldn't. There are moments in life, I know them. You feel like you are in no man's land, all alone and only by yourself. Dear, I am having the same feeling here. My love, being far from you is just irresistable. I am missing your with and your motivating words. so lonely I am here dear. I am missing you a lot. I tried a lot my love, but those tears just couldn't go on stopping. They just didn't stop running down my face. Sorry, dear I even couldn't talk you on the phone. I could imagine your pain of departure and I am really broken with your thoughts. Though you never mentioned me about this, but I have a heart that feels those emotions. It doesn't mean that you have to say everything to me, I can understand too because I have a heart that beats for you dear. How can the heart betrays me, dear, if it's a shared one. Dear, to me you are the world and staying away from you made me a lifeless person. Nothing is fine in here, just nothing. I am incomplete without you, my love. I love you and I am missing you a lot. This is a small note I am writing only for you, dear, in your rememberance. I know there's a lot of things to say to you and I really want to. But there are no words to write them down. I am lacking all those words as I don't have a good vocabulary. Dear, whatever I am is all because of your belief in me... Now, I feel like I can't keep that faith anymore... I am lost dear, completely lost. All I know right now is I am missing you, your every words, smiles, your face, your tears and your loneliness. I can feel it dear, how lonely you might be and how hard times you might be having...Dear, I am really sorry. I love you and I only know that you are with me, right inside me... Well, there's a lot of things to do in life dear and I just can't figure out now. I find no clues for struggling here. I want to but I can't. My love, I hope I could figure out some time... to freshen up myself... Yeah, I was outside a while... but your thoughts never let me out of my imaginations... Dear, things got bad, and things got worse I guess you know the tune, oh lord stuck in lodi again... I remember that song.. Dear, yes I am stuck again to your thoughts and imaginations. All I am lacking is to be in your warm arms.. And it makes me feel to be with you again... I want to see your face and talk to you, say everything that are in my heart...But that is not possible, so I am writing it down just to ease myself. Hope you read this piece of me and realise how badly I am in need of you. God! this life is just so freaking me out and I don't know what am I feeling right now... Just blank and everything is not just fine... Counting on the days was easy to meet you again, but I can't just tolerate anymore. We are miles far away and there's no way I can be in with you for a while... I want to be with you and just be with you... You always tell me that everything's just going to be fine.. Yeah, I am hoping the same, with this pain in my heart, just to ease my hallucinations. Darling, it's not fair enough, just isn't fair enough living apart like this... I miss you and I love you. My tears need your soft hands to wipe them away and never let them flow again.. I am waiting dear, just waiting. And I am desperately waiting to come true.... My eyes are red enough, I cried a lot like a baby you said. Yes I did, that was just unstoppable. Your Lovingly March 06 Miss You
Miss You.................
Somewhere very far from here across the seven seas we are far away distance between us has made our life a sweet sorrw lonliness is bitter without you just thinking and hoping to be with you you mean so much to me now I am realizing how it feels like to be apart how it feels like to be far away? And how it feels like to miss someone so badly? My heart aches for you as you are far from me..... Can't control my tears when I think about you and the times we had together.... I really miss you..... I miss you as my heart beats............... (P.S. I wrote this poem when I was in SG. Dated: Monday,Apr 3 2006, 08:18:33 AM) March 05 My Dear DilluMy Dear Dillu Dear and my dearest daughter... when I look at your pictures, I smile back Such a lovely queen you are always on my thoughts always in my eyes... I see you dear and miss you a lot... I want to hold you and keep you around my arms Kiss you and share the small funny things you do... dear, i am far very far from you... and your each thought haunts me... wondering what you might be doing just imagining your silly acts listening to what others say what your mom says and I, just think about it... dear, you are my princess my sweet love I feel sorry for myself and I feel like crying... my sweet love's not with me... she's very far from me and it kills me softly My daughter Dillu you are always in my thoughts.. if there're words I can say to you how much i miss you but I don't have one every word seems so meaningless to what I want you to say... My sweet love, hope you understand it Whenever I hear you cry to the phones connected my heart seems to explode I can't control them and silent I become there're my strong desires... thinking what I really want to hold you and love you oh, dear, I love you and I am missing you All these words just flown for you just for you dear just for you... sometimes I curse to myself why did I leave her alone? why am I taking this pain? Why's everything so unfair? Dear, I am mising you and it hurts right here, deep inside.. to this day, I cried for you cried for me myself.... pitied on myself... nobody's here to see me and listen to.. I cried alone remembering you dear my sweet love, love as always was what I thought and never knew this pain I have to pass through sorry that I missed your sweet little talks and your babling voice the greatest moment for a dad... i missed it... i missed our little walks ziggling and funny works i die to hear your sweet bably talks want to watch you play act, sing, write... help you with colors hold your hand go for a walk... dear, my sweet love I am missing you like crazy And it just hurts a lot... A lot more each passing day... Daddy's missing you a lot... February 24 Ma Chu NiMa Chu Ni... When things go wrong When sadness fills your heart when pain flows in your eyes always remember 3 things i am with you still with you will always be with you the other one is If ups and downs ever come your way if noboday care what you say if the whole world turns its back on you if the sky seems like falling right on your head if you really really feel lonely and down and dead Just don't care Ma chu ni -Annuu- February 11 Carry Your Heart With Me...Carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart...... I am never without it Anywhere i go you go, My dear;
And whatever is done by only me
Is your doing, my darling
I fear no fate For you are my fate, my sweet I want no world For beautiful you are my world, my true And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant And whatever a sun will always sing is you Here is the deepest secret nobody knows Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows Higher than soul can hope or mind can hide And this is the wonder That's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart) February 03 101 Reasons101 reasons what makes you a great friend: 1. I can't spell friendship without you 2. You??re the most beautiful flower in the garden of my life 3. You can easily tell a lie for my convenience 4. You understand when I????m too busy 5. You know me better than my siblings 6. You don't necessarily support my decisions 7. You go an extra mile when I need help 8. U tolerate my bad moods and still speak to me when your in 1 9. At others expense, you make a great laughing partner 10. You walk in when others walk out 11. I can speak my heart out to you 12. You openly discuss a disastrous date/crush 13. You fall for the same junk as I do 14. You help me to choose the right think for my heartthrob 15. I can throw my tantrums on 16. I can rely on you to post my letters 17. I know I needn't look my best when you?re around 18. I can discuss my creepy fantasies with you 19. You motivate me to exercises 20. You???ve got sense of humor 21. You hand me your handkerchief when I??ve conveniently 4gotten mine 22. You bluntly tell me when I need to spray a deo or mouth freshener 23. I can freely discuss my ex's end my latest crush 24. I can talk to you for hours about anything and nothing 25. I can tuck in for a blockbuster night 26. You know my secret wishes and keep them a secret 27. You know how to give me little surprises to make my day 28. You keep me well informed about latest gossips 29. You let me know, when I need to mend my way 30. You r a reminder of what???????s important in life 31. I can freely discuss censored topics with you 32. You always welcome me with a warm hug 33. Even if we're not in touch for ages, I know your there for me 34. You flatter me when I need to 35. You never burn a hole in my pocket 36. Shopping is fun. You always manage a good bargain 37. You understand my moods very well 38. You answer my phone, when I?????m avoiding a call 39. You never let ego come between us 40. You are there for me, when I??????m feeling down 41. Going out with u doesn't need a reason or occasion 42. Time simply flies by whenever we're together 43. I can be very comfy with you 44. You help me solve my problems 45. You keep a check on me when I????m at my spending spree 46. You can sit quietly with me 47. You care for my happiness 48. You equally participate with me on playing a prank 49. You don't take me for granted 50. You get worried when I????m not well 51. You read me like a book 52. Your always soooo right 53. Whenever I???m wrong you never make it worse by saying "I told u so" 54. I can be funny and get away without making a fool of my self 55. You???ve got a great sporting spirit 56. You make me laugh 57. You celebrate my triumphs 58. You help me overcome my shortcomings 59. Your selfless and giving 60. Without feeling hesitant I can borrow your books, dress, etc Etc Etc 61. You bring sunshine into my life 62. You never gossip about me 63. You know how to pamper me 64. You know were to find the best pair of jeans on the cheap 65. You never dump me for someone else 66. You know how 2 make me stop when; I????m talking sheer nonsense 67. You consider my feelings too 68. I can call u any time of the day without feeling hesitant 69. You point out when I????m looking like an idiot 70. You know exactly what to get for my birthday 71. Cockroaches don't scare the hell out of you 72. You don't loose your cool as often as I do 73. You so much believe in sharing, from secrets to candies 74. You know the best eating joint 75. You never shout along with me when I?????m shouting at my throats best 76. You immediately apologize after harshly giving me a piece of your mind 77. You are never afraid to accept your faults 78. You respect my privacy 79. You never demand a clarification 80. You always save the last bite of delicious 4 me 81. Your shoulders are ever ready for me to lean on 82. You alarm me when I??????ve gained too much weight 83. You light up my life 84. You patiently listen to all my troubles 85. Because you bring infinite joys to me 86. You?????re as sweet as can be 87. You accept me the way I am 88. Each time I think of you, I smile 89. You know how to emotionally black mail me 90. I can trust on your advice 91. You?????re a true reflection of me 92. I can ask you questions like "am I looking good" no of times and I know you won't get irritated 93. NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE 94. You????????????ve seen me at my worst and still stood by me 95. You have more faith in me than I do in myself 96. You will never change no matter what happens tomorrow 97. You make me wish, we were in the same family 98. You know when to make things light 99. You never laugh at my faults 100. You bring out the best in me 101. And the greatest reason is that, you are simply "YOU" June 14 Some of My Favourites!!!Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. Love is like a rose in winter, only the strong survive. "Where there's a will, there's a way. And where there's a way, then there's usually a stop sign somewhere along the road." Anger is one letter short of danger.
Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.
Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars.
Love is like heaven but hurts like hell.
"I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to!"
"If the first grape you eat is bitter then you will not bother eating grapes again. If the first grape you eat is a sweet one then you will be willing to eat a lot of bitter grapes in search of another sweet one "
"Love is like a war, easy to begin, hard to end" If you were a tear in my eye I would not cry for fear of losing you.
Can’t find a reason why God gave you to me. But that’s not a question to be asked. May be question is how did God knew that I needed someone like you"
It's been said that you only truly fall in love once, but I don't believe it. Every time I see you, I fall in love all over again
There is no greater happiness than having you...and no greater bliss than sharing this life with you. If I had one breath to spare...If I had just one moment to live...I would be spending it with you."
June 01 This life Sucks!!!I tried many times to control my thoughts, but I can't... Maybe it's my weakes point in life..... I don't want to remembe them alll.... I don't know how to control all those destructive thoughts and everything just ends in dissatisfaction... I am scared of me now.. I am no more the person I used to be... No more determination and no more hopes... NO more feelings of happiness and no more just me..
I am really sorry mom and dad.. Really very sorry. Your son's lost all his ambitions... He's no more ambitious... No more... He's lost everything his desires, dreams, destinations everything. He is a beggar now... begging from others.... I believed there's God... But no... there isn't any god in this world... No god at all... This thoghts of God sucks now... Go to hell.... Jerky world of beasts and demons.....
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