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    October 09

    You and I collide- Howie Day

    The dawn is breaking
    A light shining through
    You're barely waking
    And I'm tangled up in you
    Yeah

    I'm open, you're closed
    Where I follow, you'll go
    I worry I won't see your face
    Light up again

    Even the best fall down sometimes
    Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
    Out of the doubt that fills my mind
    I somehow find
    You and I collide

    I'm quiet you know
    You make a first impression
    I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

    Even the best fall down sometimes
    Even the stars refuse to shine
    Out of the back you fall in time
    I somehow find
    You and I collide

    Don't stop here
    I've lost my place
    I'm close behind

    Even the best fall down sometimes
    Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
    Out of the doubt that fills your mind
    You finally find
    You and I collide

    You finally find
    You and I collide
    You finally find
    You and I collide
    September 30

    Just a tree...

    The leaves shattered everywhere
    I stand beneath this old tree
    Looking at it, I compare to myself
    yes a tree I have bcome
    Used to have greenery
    and birds used to sing with me
    children used to play with me
    people used to enjoy my shade
    but they are gone now
    I stand tall, naked
    My dreams and desires
    those who wrapped me
    are down on the ground...
    all shattered and wind blowing them distant
    I stand there all alone watching them swept away
    Those were mine, once
    but no more now...
    Sometimes in the heavy rain
    and sometimes on the hot sunny day
    covered with snow sometimes
    freezing to the boiling...
    just facing the challenges that come ahead
    And not sure
    what's going to happen
    fear of running down by the flow of water
    or bing blown away with the wind current
    Just fear of falling down
    I spread my hand
    hope that somebody finds me
    and give a hug
    I want it so bad
    don't let me just stay still
    I don't want to be a living dead
    come enjoy with me, is what I wish for
    But haven't given my hope yet!
    someday I will be back again
    with my good all days
    with my dreams and wishes growing again
    I'm sure
    I'll find a cure to treat this pain
    September 09

    I'll be there for you...

    Martin Nievera - I'll Be There (For You)
    When you wake up each mornin'
    and you feel like callin'
    I'll be there for you
    When the road seems uncertain
    And you can't stop the hurtin'
    I'll be there for you
    When there's no one beside you
    I'll be there to guide you
    Catch you each time you fall
    When the stars won't shine anymore
    I'll be there....

    When the world is unkind
    And your dreams they need more time
    I'll be there for you
    If the rules they keep breakin'
    And the future is fadin'
    I'll be there for you
    The rainbow will end in the palm of your hand
    Don't ever let it go
    When the stars won't shine anymore
    I'll be there....

    Who knows where will go
    What will tomorrow brings
    When we have each other
    Just hold on tight
    We can touch to skies and fly......

    I'll be there for you....

    The rainbow will end in the palm of your hand
    Don't ever let it go
    When the stars won't shine anymore
    I'll be there....

    I'll be there....

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s42pb64Ty1o&feature=related

    September 03

    My princess

    Dear, my sweet princess
    I was happy to hear your voice
    Nearly cried when you called
    "Baba Baba" those words you screamed
    Nearly tore my heart apart
    There I was alone
    lost and lonley
    Just couldn't keep thinking
    I was on the flight
    with my thoughts near you
    Dreamed of being with you
    and holding you in my arms
    Share those sweet words
    you'd speak to me
    and say again "Baba Baba"..
    please take my hand..
    I'd then take you for a walk
    play with the pebbles and stones
    I remembered the day
    when we were beside a pond
    and there I handed you a pebble
    you threw it in the water
    and splashes there were
    so happy you were
    and you laughed out loud
    oh dear, I'm missing those laughters
    right here now...
    just thinking and thinking
    I see the pictures
    and accompany  my heart
    pray that my child is okay
    my princess is healthy and good
    distance and the memories
    life full of misery
    That's it! And That's it!
    Trying just to feel your absence
    and how hard it is
    living a life like this...
    I love you my princess
    and dad's missing you
    lovingly as always

    Some More Quotes

    "You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
    What do you do when the only person who can make you laugh is the person who made you cry?
    "You can break someone's heart, but you can't stop them from loving you." - Dr. Stolzer

     
    July 16

    Just Thinking...

    Just thinking....
    I thought I wouldn't cry
    But those tears just dropped
    Wished I'd cry with you
    Never it was a reality
    Still living in hope though
    You'll be back someday
    Dear, it's been such a lonely day
    And the nights seem even longer
    Longing to be with you
    day dreaming about you
    it's such a sweet memory
    Wished I'd share them
    All alone with you
    Just you, me and our togetherness
    Wouldn't that be teasing time?
    Long distance and time passing slow
    Playing with imaginations
    And the beautiful times we shared
    Hovering all around...
    I look at the walls
    I see you smiling back at me
    And I smile back
    Again you're gone; lost!!
    That glimpse hurts again
    Thinking about our sweet face
    And your sweet laughter
    Dear, here I am alone again...
    Just thinking...
    June 17

    Quotes

    U want & u get, that's luck, U want & u wait, that's time. U want but u compromise, that's life. And U want & u wait & u don't compromise that's LOVE.

    U want & u get, that's luck, U want & u wait, that's time. U want but u compromise, that's life. And U want & u wait & u don't compromise that's LOVE.

    We cannot be together,

    But we'll never be apart,

    For no matter what life brings us,

    You’re always in my heart

    May 30

    For My Love...

    From Now and Then.......
    Dear If I could be with you
    I could see those tear drops flown away
    could see you cry out loud
    and I would lend you my shoulder dear
    I wish I could kiss away your pain
    and swear that it won't happen again
    My darling, my love
    How could I ever hurt and make you cry?
    i am sorry if I did so...
    Deep in my heart
    you are there, right here
    I can tell and will always
    I see your eyes, your face
    such a cry baby you are
    and always you are in my thoughts
    How could you even imagine?
    that I'd hurt your feelings
    Maybe I did
    that's why I see you
    crying face on my screen
    You are perfect
    yes you are and will always be
    no matter what...
    Dear, Just to say
    I love you and will always do
    Please don't let me down
    and I'am sure you won't
    coz, you are there always for me
    and I expect the same every day
    you have lost your smile honey
    where is it?
    Please smile me once just once
    and let me feel your joy
    that's it.. I see you dear
    I die to see that single glimpse dear
    and rest in peace
    It brings ease to me and my thoughts
    makes me feel you are doing okay
    not good but okay
    you are living a hard life
    and I can see it in your eyes
    your weary face and those lips
    always willing to say something
    but, they never let out anything
    There're a lot of things that
    you have and want them to share
    still you hide them
    still you keep within yourself
    Dear, am I that confusion now?
    I know dear,
    I can see it in you
    how depressed you are
    your each and every expressions
    that you make on your face
    reminds me of pain
    My love, I wish i could take them all away
    And I know I will
    My darling, I am looking at you
    and your smiles
    they ease my feelings
    so exhausted and tired you look
    and so are your smiles dear
    but still full of hopes and dreams
    I love it...
    Dear, I want to fulfill all your desires
    and make our dream come true
    Dear, I just want to say
    I love you...
    and I am missing you a lot
    a lot more from now and then
     
     

     
    May 29

    I walk alone

    Walking this empty street
    I wonder oh Lord! why did you left me alone?
    Never knowing the destiny
    where am I heading to?
    I walk alone
    Lost and lonely
    Searching for the will to survive
    Yes, I am walking on
    New places and different faces
    but the empty road ahead
    no one besides me
    and no one to talk with
    what a cruel world it is
    there are thoughts in my mind
    memories and imaginations
    what a life would have been with you near me?
    It's hard to live, just to walk
    in every step ahead
    when no's there to care
    all these thoughts just hovering around
    I walk alone
    I walk alone
     
    May 28

    Strange Feeling

    I got this strange feeling today... it's early in the morning 2:27. I wasn't asleep. I was lost to myself thinking what's going on in this life. But then I realize that everything happens for the good. Yeah, this strange feeling occupied my mind. Why should I worry when it's going to happen. Yes, big desires and overload in mind only creates mental torture. Wishing big and not getting through it may ruin a day. So I stopped worrying about it. Nobody knows what's going to happen next and one should not worry about it. It comes and it goes. The only thing that remains is you only you. So, it's you who decides what's to do and what not. I listened to the song my wish. It really inspired me. "Your dreams stay big your worries stay small" Yeah. that's really cool. I went outside. Looked around. It's cold and it was slightly raining. It made my day. Yes, if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile... more than anything..more than anything... my wish for you that this life becomes all that you want to... Just a feeling I felt to this day. I hope to do the best in life and keep on walking. I don't know what to write next. Just this much... Be happy to what you have and enjoy to the fullest.
    April 13

    My Love...

     
    April 12

    Dear, I miss you

    Dear,
    Seems like miles apart... you are being so far away and it hurts when I think about you. What do I see and feel ends with you and that kills me inside. Maybe I am missing you... with each passing day and each moment I'm living here without you...
    Far awa, there's a light
    showing me the way ahead
    Dear, I see you..
    With candle light on...
    nobody, but seen only by me..
    leading me the way ahead...
    showing me the directions...
    when I am lost and confused...
    but far away sometimes
    I feel, you're not there with me...
    Is it only my illusion?
    I think again
    Again I realise
    I need no eyes to see you
    You're always with me...
    Controlling all these emotions
    sharing wiht my imaginations
    Yes, there you are!!!
    Being the sight of me
    Always making me feel
    Here I am dear
    Here I am...
    Feels like
    I am missing you again....
    -Psychodeeps
     
    March 12

    My Love

    Sometimes I feel like I did terribly wrong leaving you alond dear. I haven't had that feeling but I was pretty sure that I was doing the right thing for our future. I did not really have thought about you dear, and how hard life you might be having... living just without me with no one to share with your feelings. Dear I am really sorry for that. I tried a lot to control my emotions but to this day I couldn't. There are moments in life, I know them. You feel like you are in no man's land, all alone and only by yourself. Dear, I am having the same feeling here. My love, being far from you is just irresistable. I am missing your with and your motivating words. so lonely I am here dear. I am missing you a lot. I tried a lot my love, but those tears just couldn't go on stopping. They just didn't stop running down my face. Sorry, dear I even couldn't talk you on the phone. I could imagine your pain of departure and I am really broken with your thoughts. Though you never mentioned me about this, but I have a heart that feels those emotions. It doesn't mean that you have to say everything to me, I can understand too because I have a heart that beats for you dear. How can the heart betrays me, dear, if it's a shared one. Dear, to me you are the world and staying away from you made me a lifeless person. Nothing is fine in here, just nothing. I am incomplete without you, my love. I love you and I am missing you a lot. This is a small note I am writing only for you, dear, in your rememberance. I know there's a lot of things to say to you and I really want to. But there are no words to write them down. I am lacking all those words as I don't have a good vocabulary. Dear, whatever I am is all because of your belief in me... Now, I feel like I can't keep that faith anymore... I am lost dear, completely lost. All I know right now is I am missing you, your every words, smiles, your face, your tears and your loneliness. I can feel it dear, how lonely you might be and how hard times you might be having...Dear, I am really sorry. I love you and I only know that you are with me, right inside me...  Well, there's a lot of things to do in life dear and I just can't figure out now. I find no clues for struggling here. I want to but I can't. My love, I hope I could figure out some time... to freshen up myself... Yeah, I was outside a while... but your thoughts never let me out of my imaginations... Dear, things got bad, and things got worse I guess you know the tune, oh lord stuck in lodi again... I remember that song.. Dear, yes I am stuck again to your thoughts and imaginations. All I am lacking is to be in your warm arms.. And it makes me feel to be with you again... I want to see your face and talk to you, say everything that are in my heart...But that is not possible, so I am writing it down just to ease myself. Hope you read this piece of me and realise how badly I am in need of you. God! this life is just so freaking me out and I don't know what am I feeling right now... Just blank and everything is not just fine... Counting on the days was easy to meet you again, but I can't just tolerate anymore. We are miles far away and there's no way I can be in with you for a while... I want to be with you and just be with you... You always tell me that everything's just going to be fine.. Yeah, I am hoping the same, with this pain in my heart, just to ease my hallucinations. Darling, it's not fair enough, just isn't fair enough living apart like this... I miss you and I love you. My tears need your soft hands to wipe them away and never let them flow again.. I am waiting dear, just waiting. And I am desperately waiting to come true.... My eyes are red enough, I cried a lot like a baby you said. Yes I did, that was just unstoppable.
    Your Lovingly
    March 06

    Miss You

    Miss_you_by_MJezus
    Miss You.................
    Somewhere very far from here
    across the seven seas
    we are far away
    distance between us
    has made our life a sweet sorrw
    lonliness is bitter without you
    just thinking and hoping to be with you
    you mean so much to me
    now I am realizing
    how it feels like to be apart
    how it feels like to be far away?
    And how it feels like to miss someone so badly?
    My heart aches for you
    as you are far from me.....
    Can't control my tears
    when I think about you
    and the times we had together....
    I really
     
    miss you.....
    I miss you as my heart beats...............
     
     
    (P.S. I wrote this poem when I was in SG. Dated: Monday,Apr 3 2006, 08:18:33 AM)
    March 05

    My Dear Dillu

    My Dear Dillu
    Dear and my dearest daughter...
    when I look at your pictures,
    I smile back
    Such a lovely queen you are
    always on my thoughts
    always in my eyes...
    I see you dear and
    miss you a lot...
    I want to hold you
    and keep you around my arms
    Kiss you and share
    the small funny things you do...
    dear, i am far
    very far from you...
    and your each thought
    haunts me...
    wondering what you might be doing
    just imagining your silly acts
    listening to what others say
    what your mom says
    and I, just think about it...
    dear, you are my princess
    my sweet love
    I feel sorry for myself
    and I feel like crying...
    my sweet love's not with me...
    she's very far from me
    and it kills me softly
    My daughter Dillu
    you are always in my thoughts..
    if there're words I can say to you
    how much i miss you
    but I don't have one
    every word seems so meaningless
    to what I want you to say...
    My sweet love, hope you understand it
    Whenever I hear you cry
    to the phones connected
    my heart seems to explode
    I can't control them
    and silent I become
    there're my strong desires...
    thinking what I really want to
    hold you and love you
    oh, dear, I love you
    and I am missing you
    All these words just
    flown for you
    just for you dear
    just for you...
    sometimes I curse to myself
    why did I leave her alone?
    why am I taking this pain?
    Why's everything so unfair?
    Dear, I am mising you
    and it hurts
    right here, deep inside..
    to this day, I cried for you
    cried for me myself....
    pitied on myself...
    nobody's here to see me
    and listen to..
    I cried alone
    remembering you dear
    my sweet love,
    love as always
    was what I thought
    and never knew this pain
    I have to pass through
    sorry that I missed
    your sweet little talks and
    your babling voice
    the greatest moment
    for a dad...
    i missed it...
    i missed our little walks
    ziggling and funny works
    i die to hear
    your sweet bably talks
    want to watch you play
    act, sing, write...
    help you with colors
    hold your hand
    go for a walk...
    dear, my sweet love
    I am missing you like crazy
    And it just hurts a lot...
    A lot more each passing day...
    Daddy's missing you a lot...
    February 24

    Ma Chu Ni

    Ma Chu Ni...
    When things go wrong 
    When sadness fills your heart
    when pain flows in your eyes always remember 3 things
    i am with you
    still with you
     will always be with you
    the other one is
    If ups and downs
    ever come your way
    if noboday care what you say
    if the whole world turns its back on you
    if the sky seems like falling right on your head
    if you really really feel lonely and down and dead
    Just don't care
           Ma chu ni
                                                              -Annuu-
    February 11

    Carry Your Heart With Me...

    Carry your heart with me
                                     I carry it in my heart......
    I am never without it
    Anywhere i go you go,
    My dear;
    And whatever is done by only me
    Is your doing, my darling
    I fear no fate
    For you are my fate, my sweet
    I want no world
    For beautiful you are my world, my true
    And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
    And whatever a sun will always sing is you
    Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
    Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
    And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
    Higher than soul can hope or mind can hide
    And this is the wonder
    That's keeping the stars apart
    I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)
    February 03

    101 Reasons

    101 reasons what makes you a great friend:
    1. I can't spell friendship without you
    2. You??re the most beautiful flower in the garden of my life
    3. You can easily tell a lie for my convenience
    4. You understand when I????m too busy
    5. You know me better than my siblings
    6. You don't necessarily support my decisions
    7. You go an extra mile when I need help
    8. U tolerate my bad moods and still speak to me when your in 1
    9. At others expense, you make a great laughing partner
    10. You walk in when others walk out
    11. I can speak my heart out to you
    12. You openly discuss a disastrous date/crush
    13. You fall for the same junk as I do
    14. You help me to choose the right think for my heartthrob
    15. I can throw my tantrums on
    16. I can rely on you to post my letters
    17. I know I needn't look my best when you?re around
    18. I can discuss my creepy fantasies with you
    19. You motivate me to exercises
    20. You???ve got sense of humor
    21. You hand me your handkerchief when I??ve conveniently 4gotten mine
    22. You bluntly tell me when I need to spray a deo or mouth freshener
    23. I can freely discuss my ex's end my latest crush
    24. I can talk to you for hours about anything and nothing
    25. I can tuck in for a blockbuster night
    26. You know my secret wishes and keep them a secret
    27. You know how to give me little surprises to make my day
    28. You keep me well informed about latest gossips
    29. You let me know, when I need to mend my way
    30. You r a reminder of what???????s important in life
    31. I can freely discuss censored topics with you
    32. You always welcome me with a warm hug
    33. Even if we're not in touch for ages, I know your there for me
    34. You flatter me when I need to
    35. You never burn a hole in my pocket
    36. Shopping is fun. You always manage a good bargain
    37. You understand my moods very well
    38. You answer my phone, when I?????m avoiding a call
    39. You never let ego come between us
    40. You are there for me, when I??????m feeling down
    41. Going out with u doesn't need a reason or occasion
    42. Time simply flies by whenever we're together
    43. I can be very comfy with you
    44. You help me solve my problems
    45. You keep a check on me when I????m at my spending spree
    46. You can sit quietly with me
    47. You care for my happiness
    48. You equally participate with me on playing a prank
    49. You don't take me for granted
    50. You get worried when I????m not well
    51. You read me like a book
    52. Your always soooo right
    53. Whenever I???m wrong you never make it worse by saying "I told u so"
    54. I can be funny and get away without making a fool of my self
    55. You???ve got a great sporting spirit
    56. You make me laugh
    57. You celebrate my triumphs
    58. You help me overcome my shortcomings
    59. Your selfless and giving
    60. Without feeling hesitant I can borrow your books, dress, etc Etc Etc
    61. You bring sunshine into my life
    62. You never gossip about me
    63. You know how to pamper me
    64. You know were to find the best pair of jeans on the cheap
    65. You never dump me for someone else
    66. You know how 2 make me stop when; I????m talking sheer nonsense
    67. You consider my feelings too
    68. I can call u any time of the day without feeling hesitant
    69. You point out when I????m looking like an idiot
    70. You know exactly what to get for my birthday
    71. Cockroaches don't scare the hell out of you
    72. You don't loose your cool as often as I do
    73. You so much believe in sharing, from secrets to candies
    74. You know the best eating joint
    75. You never shout along with me when I?????m shouting at my throats best
    76. You immediately apologize after harshly giving me a piece of your mind
    77. You are never afraid to accept your faults
    78. You respect my privacy
    79. You never demand a clarification
    80. You always save the last bite of delicious 4 me
    81. Your shoulders are ever ready for me to lean on
    82. You alarm me when I??????ve gained too much weight
    83. You light up my life
    84. You patiently listen to all my troubles
    85. Because you bring infinite joys to me
    86. You?????re as sweet as can be
    87. You accept me the way I am
    88. Each time I think of you, I smile
    89. You know how to emotionally black mail me
    90. I can trust on your advice
    91. You?????re a true reflection of me
    92. I can ask you questions like "am I looking good" no of times and I know you won't get irritated
    93. NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE
    94. You????????????ve seen me at my worst and still stood by me
    95. You have more faith in me than I do in myself
    96. You will never change no matter what happens tomorrow
    97. You make me wish, we were in the same family
    98. You know when to make things light
    99. You never laugh at my faults
    100. You bring out the best in me
    101. And the greatest reason is that, you are simply "YOU"
    June 14

    Some of My Favourites!!!

    Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 c but 2 understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but 2 HOLD ON !!!!
    Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

    Love is like a rose in winter, only the strong survive.

    "Where there's a will, there's a way. And where there's a way, then there's usually a stop sign somewhere along the road."

    Anger is one letter short of danger.

    Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the number of moments that take our breath away.

    Do not cry if the Sun sets at the end of the day, because the tears will not let you enjoy the beauty of the Stars. 

    Love is like heaven but hurts like hell.

    "I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to!"

    "If the first grape you eat is bitter then you will not bother eating grapes again. If the first grape you eat is a sweet one then you will be willing to eat a lot of bitter grapes in search of another sweet one "

    "Love is like a war, easy to begin, hard to end"

    If you were a tear in my eye I would not cry for fear of losing you.

    Can’t find a reason why God gave you to me. But that’s not a question to be asked. May be question is how did God knew that I needed someone like you"

    It's been said that you only truly fall in love once, but I don't believe it. Every time I see you, I fall in love all over again

    There is no greater happiness than having you...and no greater bliss than sharing this life with you. If I had one breath to spare...If I had just one moment to live...I would be spending it with you."


     

    June 01

    This life Sucks!!!

    I tried many times to control my thoughts, but I can't... Maybe it's my weakes point in life..... I don't want to remembe them alll.... I don't know how to control all those destructive thoughts and everything just ends in dissatisfaction... I am scared of me now.. I am no more the person I used to be... No more determination and no more hopes... NO more feelings of happiness and no more just me..
     
     
    I am really sorry mom and dad.. Really very sorry. Your son's lost all his ambitions... He's no more ambitious... No more... He's lost everything his desires, dreams, destinations everything. He is a beggar now... begging from others.... I believed there's God... But no... there  isn't any god in this world... No god at all... This thoghts of God sucks now... Go to hell.... Jerky world of beasts and demons.....